You're playing the wrong game.

Deciding to try reading a book for my devotional this morning, I open to a page where I found God.  Literally.  God was in my book!!! He just spoke to my heart and comforted me with the words on the page that I believe to be truth...
I never fully understood why it was SO horrible for Eve to take a bite of the apple.  I mean, I know why it's bad because of the aftermath...but I thought, 'If I were in her shoes, I'd want to know everything too!'

I guess that's the kind of stuff you think about when you want your life to be certain and when uncertainty starts to envelop your life.  I want it mapped out for me.  I want God to tell me what I'm supposed to do in this life!!!

Yet as I was reading John Ortberg's book, God is Closer Than You Think, he talks about Coach Levy from the Buffalo Bills (not sure if this is a current coach) and someone interviewed him about how he can handle the uncertainty of walking into the field and not knowing the outcome.  His answer was "If you're looking for certainty, you've chosen the wrong game."

Oh.
Yea.
I suppose if I knew exactly which way to turn and what I'm going to do next....my heart and mind would be checked out.  I would run on autopilot, maybe somedays wondering if I even wanted to follow this "correct and righteous" plan.

As Ortberg states, if I can live with confidence and joy even when I didn't yet know if I'd get what I'd hoped for or just didn't yet know where I'm going,  a kind of strength would be formed in my soul because of having to hope and trust in the Lord!
Hebrews 11:1 Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.

Oh soul, I can't wait for you to be spectacularly muscular!!!